New Age or Lazy?

Currently listening to: Killin' Time by Wellspoke
Currently playing: Xenoblade Chronicles, MW3

Spent a few days up north this week with my family. Got detoxed, drank an ocean of water, and ate the odd meal. Got my neck tattoo finished, and bought a brand new 2012 GMC Terrian. Made the choice to try and make things work with Alison again, so I deleted my Facebook and am changing my cell phone number. I'm hoping this relieves her of any suspicion and jealousy which is the root of all my problems in said relationship. It seems to be an old fable that boys and girls can be just friends without sexual tension or situations arising.

I always said I would never do this again, but history has a tendency to repeat itself, even with a completely different cast, the story seems to remain the same. Perhaps this is my way of progressing the storyline. All I plan to do is work, and sit at home and play video games, and work on my music. So anyone who wants to know what I'm up to? There it is.

Having thought over all this and weighing the pros and cons, I came to wonder. Do people spend more time and effort on their Internet lives then they do their real life ones? Some people work terribly hard on their Facebooks and Facebook relationships, YouTubes, message boards etc. I understand that in some cases this is the only way to connect with loved ones or friends that are around the world, much like me and the boys in Near Ruin. Ive met a few people that were rad and interesting online, but when I met them, they were awkward and had nothing of interest to say or had no way to communicate in a real situation. I'm not like that, and I do quite well in social situations where I like the people, but if we all put as much effort into our jobs or relationships outside the Internet like we do in our Facebooks, YouTubes, Blogs etc. Maybe alot of your status updates wouldn't including being broke or being in a shitty relationship. Typing a status or tweet takes 30 seconds tops, in 30 seconds I can tell someone I love them, rub their back a little bit, or give em a kiss. If someone of you did this for your significant others as often as you update your statuses, maybe your relationships would bear some fruit.

Am I disappearing off the Internet completely? No. I still intend to YouTube, read comics, keep up with emails, blog, and use the Internet for game help and in general an information tool. I post over at GameFAQs under the name Mindesyn and am usually on the Conduit 2 board.
Perhaps I'm just an older guy. This internet social shit is for kids and teenagers. We grew up with Internet so the world is changing and simply Xing out Internet use isn't the permanent solution. We have to change on what we use the Internet for. How many workplaces suffer because people cant stop playing Mafia Wars on Facebook, or mindlessly surf YouTube? People spend more time making friendships on the Internet and for the most part take them more seriously. If I don't talk to you in real life for 6 months you don't care. If I delete you off my Facebook due to the lack of connecting or talking, you take it as a huge 'Fuck you' why is being on my Internet 'friends' list more important then having a real life friendship?

Convenience. We all want to be a part of someones life, but want no effort in doing so. This behaviour starts on the Internet and soon carries over to personal life, where we make no effort in our marriages or friendships. I don't use the Internet like that. I still go over to my friends house and play video games there, even tho its just as simple to play online from the comfort of my own home. I try to see people when time affords me, even tho most people always talk about getting together, but when the occasion arises they seem to not want any part of the idea.

Not to mention the Internet is educating your children instead of you. Its not an ideal curriculum. Net nanny isn't the answer. Spending time with your kids is. But this point doesn't matter.

Point is I've endured alot of stress and bullshit over the internet, that I could've easily had avoided if I just focused on the people beside me. Im a mild case. I know some people that the best way to get ahold of them is to login to Facebook or Tweet them. They won't answer texts or phone calls, but always are on social networking sites, and for all I know that's all they really are.
If you are offended I deleted my Facebook in order to focus on my relationship and improve it because it needs it? Go fuck yourself. I got email, YouTube, GameFAQ account, a Twitter, and this blog. If that doesn't work for you, maybe you should try harder if you want me as your friend.

Add me on YouTube or GameFAQs under 'Mindesyn' Follow me on Twitter @demonicjaye or just read this fucking blog if all that is too much effort.

Glory Fading Reclaimed

Currently listening to: Rewind (feat. None Like Joshua & Dani) - Fracx
Currently playing: Conduit 2, Klonoa, Xenoblade Chronicles

This past weekend I spent in Regina I realized something. I'm overweight. According to the BMI chart at the doctors office I stopped at, I'm in the "morbidly obese" column, I know these charts don't account for muscle mass, which I have plenty of, but not enough to justify myself as healthy. I weigh 210 lbs and am 5'8. I ate way too much food in the capital and lazed around my hotel room and took cabs everywhere I went (mostly on account of the rain and heavy wind combo mother nature graced me with) but still. I felt like complete and utter shit, hard breathing, and completely bloated left me with both depression and motivation.

I'm not a stranger to exercise and diet, I fluctuate weight more than anyone I know, not even two years ago I was 168 lbs, and very well toned. I trained for Muay Thai, MMA, and just generally overall good health. Now I own a Bowflex that collects dust, a heavy bag that has been on my basement floor since moving it in favour of my drums, dogs that need to be ran, tons of supplements including whey protein, creatine, multivitamins, and fat burners that sit on the shelf, and I also have friends who will train with me and work on boxing and weights. I have everything I need to get in shape and get healthy.

I don't lack motivation or ambition for the most part. Its half in part to my lifestyle. Work keeps my hours full and on my days off I don't want to get into a workout session. The other half is the diet aspect. Carnduff is set-up for the go-go oil patch. Convenience stores are filled with quick food like pizza, fried chicken, hamburgers, hot dogs, and tons of other snacks and drinks. After a long day I don't want to cook some chicken and have some fruit. I want some fried chicken and a Rockstar. I want to sit down and play video games or watch TV.

So whats the point of all this? Usually I start a workout regime, workout for 1-2 weeks, then have a busy day, skip a workout, skip two, eat some junk...and back to the unhealthy diet and lifestyle that caused my weight gain. I laugh at those TV shows where people are "morbidly obese" and always thought "How did you ever get that fucking fat?" I can tell you, you don't notice. I suppose some people blame genetics, but I cant. My sister and my mother are in amazing shape, and even my old man with his less than healthy eating habits and smoking is still in decent shape for his years. My mom is over 50 and puts women half her age to shame. All she does is eat well and cardio and some weights, shes not hardcore or a fitness guru, just an average person who took an interest in her health. I don't want to let this weight pile up and suddenly I'm on TV for all of you to mock and watch me struggle to do the basic workouts. Am I being dramatic? Perhaps a tad, but had these people been harder on themselves they wouldn't be 300 lbs and suing fast food companies for making them fat.

I'm taking a week to go up north to my parents place its the perfect place to get in the healthy eating mood. They eat pretty healthy, not alot of junk for me to eat, and its got the workout room I need to get a quick little jump on my exercise regime, even walking the treadmill will help out. I'm getting a tattoo on Wednesday and that will hinder my workouts, but not my diet.
After I heal up tho, I'm gonna get back into the Kick boxing training style of lifestyle I used to engage in. I might lose time on video games, and not as much time for music and my projects, but health at my age has to come first.

Either way I suppose this was just me talking out loud opposed to having any real point or purpose. Ill be updating this space with hopefully some weight loss points.

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