Glory Fading Reclaimed

Currently listening to: Rewind (feat. None Like Joshua & Dani) - Fracx
Currently playing: Conduit 2, Klonoa, Xenoblade Chronicles

This past weekend I spent in Regina I realized something. I'm overweight. According to the BMI chart at the doctors office I stopped at, I'm in the "morbidly obese" column, I know these charts don't account for muscle mass, which I have plenty of, but not enough to justify myself as healthy. I weigh 210 lbs and am 5'8. I ate way too much food in the capital and lazed around my hotel room and took cabs everywhere I went (mostly on account of the rain and heavy wind combo mother nature graced me with) but still. I felt like complete and utter shit, hard breathing, and completely bloated left me with both depression and motivation.

I'm not a stranger to exercise and diet, I fluctuate weight more than anyone I know, not even two years ago I was 168 lbs, and very well toned. I trained for Muay Thai, MMA, and just generally overall good health. Now I own a Bowflex that collects dust, a heavy bag that has been on my basement floor since moving it in favour of my drums, dogs that need to be ran, tons of supplements including whey protein, creatine, multivitamins, and fat burners that sit on the shelf, and I also have friends who will train with me and work on boxing and weights. I have everything I need to get in shape and get healthy.

I don't lack motivation or ambition for the most part. Its half in part to my lifestyle. Work keeps my hours full and on my days off I don't want to get into a workout session. The other half is the diet aspect. Carnduff is set-up for the go-go oil patch. Convenience stores are filled with quick food like pizza, fried chicken, hamburgers, hot dogs, and tons of other snacks and drinks. After a long day I don't want to cook some chicken and have some fruit. I want some fried chicken and a Rockstar. I want to sit down and play video games or watch TV.

So whats the point of all this? Usually I start a workout regime, workout for 1-2 weeks, then have a busy day, skip a workout, skip two, eat some junk...and back to the unhealthy diet and lifestyle that caused my weight gain. I laugh at those TV shows where people are "morbidly obese" and always thought "How did you ever get that fucking fat?" I can tell you, you don't notice. I suppose some people blame genetics, but I cant. My sister and my mother are in amazing shape, and even my old man with his less than healthy eating habits and smoking is still in decent shape for his years. My mom is over 50 and puts women half her age to shame. All she does is eat well and cardio and some weights, shes not hardcore or a fitness guru, just an average person who took an interest in her health. I don't want to let this weight pile up and suddenly I'm on TV for all of you to mock and watch me struggle to do the basic workouts. Am I being dramatic? Perhaps a tad, but had these people been harder on themselves they wouldn't be 300 lbs and suing fast food companies for making them fat.

I'm taking a week to go up north to my parents place its the perfect place to get in the healthy eating mood. They eat pretty healthy, not alot of junk for me to eat, and its got the workout room I need to get a quick little jump on my exercise regime, even walking the treadmill will help out. I'm getting a tattoo on Wednesday and that will hinder my workouts, but not my diet.
After I heal up tho, I'm gonna get back into the Kick boxing training style of lifestyle I used to engage in. I might lose time on video games, and not as much time for music and my projects, but health at my age has to come first.

Either way I suppose this was just me talking out loud opposed to having any real point or purpose. Ill be updating this space with hopefully some weight loss points.

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